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Happy Friday friends!

I’ve been vague on social media about the big life changes coming up, so now that some of the cats are out of the bag I will break it all down. This post is slightly overdue and will hopefully answer the majority of questions I’ve been getting from family, friends, and blog readers alike. It’s going to be lengthy so if you don’t care to read it all then feel free to skip to the “SparkNotes” version at the bottom.

For those of you who’ve been following along for a while now (thank you), you are aware I do not enjoy my current work situation (to put it nicely). For anyone who is new I moved from Grand Rapids, MI to Newport Beach, CA late last April to work in marketing for a supply chain logistics company. I knew almost immediately after starting the position that this was not a good fit, but I was stuck (for multiple reasons). The transition to life 2,000+ miles away from some of the most important people in my life was a challenge to say the least, and as time went on we realized that Orange County, CA isn’t the spot for us.

I did look around and interview for other jobs out here around the holidays, but about that time I had mentally decided I wasn’t going to stay in the area, so it didn’t seem to fair to a potential employer (or my resume) to find another gig for 3-4 months. I did start teaching SPIN on the side though, which really helped my morale, and gave me more purpose.

The decision to move to California was a bit rash, as a job offer presented itself much faster than I was prepared for last year. I took the leap, knowing I would always regret it if I didn’t, and am happy to say I lived in Southern California for a year. While it was challenging at times (and still is), I’m beyond grateful for every single experience and opportunity I’ve had out here that I wouldn’t have been able to do if I was living in the Midwest. California is an absolutely beautiful state, and we were able to explore a good chunk of it in a short 12 month span.

But, as many of you know, if you hate your job, that negativity seeps into all the other wonderful aspects of your life, no matter how hard you try to keep it out.

I toyed with the idea of “starting over” – moving up to LA to find a fashion related job and trying it all again, but truly I don’t have the patience or money left to do so.  The cost of living is high in Orange County, and LA is even more expensive and more congested (two things I don’t love).

The idea came to me in January about moving back, at least for the summer (aka the best time to be in Michigan). I knew I could work a fun job; we could live with our friends, see them all the time, and get to be there for all those events we’ve missed. (Graduations, birthdays, weddings, Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, etc). I’ve been referring to it as a “re-group” period, since we’re not sure exactly how long we’re staying.

 I recognize that this is not a “career move” by any means, but that doesn’t phase me. I’m still young, and since we’re both debt free it gives us a lot more flexibility than some of our peers. I read this article yesterday (advice from a dying 24 year old), and it resonated with me. I’ve made it clear that I refuse to be complacent, to spend my hours at a desk I hate, to have dreams but never chase them, to let fear of failure get in my way. I don’t know where I’m headed next, but I can tell you what I do know:

I know what & who I value

I know what I’m passionate about

I know my strengths and weaknesses

I know I aim to positively impact people around me

And I know I’m trying to create a life I love to live and that I’m proud of.

I was hesitant at first to share about moving back, worried people would consider me a “failure” since I moved away and came back after a year. But you know what, there are plenty of people who are too afraid to make big leaps, and try things that scare them.  To me, failure is in the lack of trying, not the actual trying and “failing.”

At the end of the day you have to do what’s right for YOU, no matter what anyone else thinks. You are in control of your emotions, and while you may not be in control of everything that happens to you, you are absolutely in control of how you handle it.

I’m proud to say I tried, I learned, I experienced and I decided that Orange County isn’t the best fit for me.

Thank you to anyone who has supported me over the past year (or really ever). I appreciate you more than you know.

Much love + happy weekend!

Xo, Maddy

PS. For those who prefer the SparkNotes version:

  • Today is March 31, 2017 and my LAST DAY at the job I’ve struggled with
  • I will still be teaching SPIN classes through April 18th
  • We will be moving BACK to Michigan late April and making an exploration road trip out of it (again)
  • I do not have an exact amount of time we will be in Michigan nor do I know next steps yet.

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16 Comments

  • Reply jodie

    Good for you Maddy.
    It’s never a failure to do what is best for you, and once you get old like me, you’ll realize that life is way too short to stay where it’s not good for you!!
    I think it’s great that you are moving back!!
    jodie
    http://www.jtouchofstyle.com

    March 31, 2017 at 2:32 pm
    • Reply madelinewp

      Thanks Jodie! I’m looking forward to it 🙂

      March 31, 2017 at 4:50 pm
  • Reply Jessie @ Just Jessie

    So excited for you!! This resonates with me SO much. It’s crazy how much a job you hate attacks every other part of your life. It’s not worth it! Let me know when you visit Chicago 🙂

    March 31, 2017 at 5:44 pm
  • Reply Sarah T

    Definitely not a failure at all. As you said, you tried it for a year and it sounds like the experience as a whole wasn’t a bad one, just not the right fit. Sometimes you have to experience that to know what is right and I do think you might’ve regretted it if you hadn’t at least tried. Now you know! Hoping you’re able to figure out exactly what is you want to do and that you excel at it!

    March 31, 2017 at 5:55 pm
  • Reply the cape on the corner

    yay, i think that’s great for you. why would you want to stay somewhere you don’t like or work somewhere that makes you on unhappy b/c of what somebody else would think. i think it’s awesome that you tried it for a year, and you learned you didn’t like it. if you never left, you would always wonder. i am struggling with my job…i used to love it. i do important work for little pay, but i am good at and loved my job. this last year we had a new exec director, and she’s made the workplace horrible. my coworkers have anxiety, depression, fear, headaches, stomachaches, cry, etc over the thought of having to come in after the weekend or a holiday, when we used to all enjoy our office and the work we did. it’s just a really tough place to be, and like you said, it absolutely impacts other aspects of your life. super happy for you!
    b

    March 31, 2017 at 6:57 pm
  • Reply Diana

    Good for you but a question that keeps coming up and you never explain… WHO the heck is “we”????
    Good luck with the move!

    March 31, 2017 at 7:16 pm
    • Reply madelinewp

      Ah my bad Diana! My boyfriend moved to Cali with me and will be returning to Michigan with me as well 🙂

      April 1, 2017 at 2:07 am
  • Reply Jackie

    While I’ve never moved away (And can’t imagine moving SO far), your story resonates with me a lot. I know how it feels to be miserable in a job, but not knowing what to do instead. It sounds like you’re making the right decision and you are not at all a failure. A year away is a LONG time, so it’s not like you didn’t give it a fair shot.

    And – YAY FOR BEING DONE!!! I’m sure you’ll be celebrating that one tonight!

    Jackie
    Something About That

    March 31, 2017 at 9:07 pm
  • Reply Lisa

    I love your insight Maddy, your young, what a great time to try new things and learn more about yourself. You were raised by great parents, surrounded by positive people, and loved by so many. I know all of these things are part of who you are! Stay humble and true to who you are kid, you’ll end up where your suppose to be, I promise. Stay safe in your travels😊

    April 1, 2017 at 2:03 am
  • Reply Kristina

    Hey girl, I just wanted to say good for you! There’s no reason to stay with a job that you hate. Find something (and someplace) you love.

    http://www.kristinadoestheinternets.com

    April 1, 2017 at 1:48 pm
  • Reply Nicole

    Definitely not a failure, You guys tried something and now you are just readjusting the plan. I took 4 months off between jobs to travel and recharge and I don’t regret it at all. Life is too short to work somewhere you hate and it totally can infect the rest of your life. You can always find another job. Congrats on being done with it!! And your road trip sounds like a lot of fun and the perfect way to celebrate a change!

    Nicole
    Nicole to the Nines

    April 1, 2017 at 3:50 pm
    • Reply madelinewp

      Yes, I remember reading about your 4 months off and how wonderful it was. Sometimes we just need a break from adult life haha 🙂

      April 5, 2017 at 3:30 pm
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  • Reply Sarah

    When I moved back to Charlottesville from Nashville, I had that same “Am I a failure?” fear – What would my family say? Then, I just decided I didn’t care – I was doign what I knew deep down I needed to do.

    So basically, it’ll all work out just fine for you, even if it gets messy for a bit! Congratulations on putting yourself and the things you value most first!

    April 3, 2017 at 6:54 pm
    • Reply madelinewp

      Thanks so much Sarah! I know that its right for me, no matter what people say. But truly, since telling people, I have received the kindest, most positive feedback 🙂

      April 5, 2017 at 3:27 pm
  • Reply Tieka, Selective Potential

    Aw, that’s so exciting you’re coming back to Michigan! Absolutely zero failure associated with that; you had a new and exciting experience for a year… and who knows what the future holds for you! xo

    April 5, 2017 at 3:44 pm
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